Friday, February 15, 2013

its official!

Wednesday was my final deadline for my fundraising for Rwanda...

I'm so incredibly blessed to say that I have raised ALL of the money that I needed, so I am OFFICIALLY GOING TO RWANDA!!!

The small country is located in the center and eastern part of Africa.
Raising the money for this trip has been such an awesome experience for me in learning how to trust in God's provision.  I pray for Rwanda every single day, and every time I pray, I ask God to provide all of my needs.  Every day as I prayed for Rwanda, I Each time I had a financial deadline, there seemed to be a pattern.  I would be running short of the money that I needed, and then at the very last second, much more money than what I needed would come in.  God didn't just give me what I needed - He gave an abundance.

And now, I have the $3675 that I needed raised...but the Lord didn't stop there.  God provided even more than I needed! He gave me an abundance of funds,  so now the extra money that I raise will help other people who are struggling to get money in. My God is not only the God who provides, but the God of abundance. 

I learned that just like God has led me every step of the way in other area of my life, He could lead me in the area of finances too.  Nothing is too much for Him - not even $3675.  I have so much gratitude during this time - I'm so thankful for the God who provides for all of my needs, and for the friends and family who have been so incredibly generous to me.

I'm not the only one with this story of abundance.  Another girl going on my trip, Katie, needed to raise over $1,000 going into the final week before our last deadline.  She ended up receiving an additional $400 over what she needed! My friend, Erin, is also going to Rwanda.  I saw her on the date that all of our money was due, and she still needed over $1,100.  We prayed together that day for God to bring in the funds she needed so that she could go on the trip.  We were asking for faith to believe that He could do abundantly more than we can ask - but I wasn't even expecting for God to move like He did.  A few hours later, Erin ran into my room and told me that she had raised the $1,100 that she needed! God provided for her in a matter of hours. How amazing is that?!  

Some of Scripture that has really been helpful in expressing my feelings during this time:
Source: http://be-the-change.tumblr.com/post/8414425453

"I will sing to the Lord, because He has dealt bountifully with me." - Psalm 13:6

"The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup; You hold my lot." - Psalm 16:5

"You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand there are pleasures forevermore." - Psalm 16:11

"Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God." - Psalm 20:7

"My cup overflows." - Psalm 23:5

I am so undeserving of all the blessings that I've received.  I'm just so amazed by God's faithfulness and provision! And He is STILL providing so much more for me.

This is ACTUALLY happening.  I've been praying and thinking about this for SO long, but now its real. I'm really going to Rwanda!

"Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen." - Ephesians 3:20-21

Thursday, February 14, 2013

things that i love.

In honor of Valentine's Day, I'm sharing a few of the silly little things that I love.  They are in no particular order and this list is definitely not everything, just a random listing of the things that make me happy!

1. Turquoise.
Source: clker.com

2. Reading for fun.
Source: www.theproducersperspective.com

3. Running.
Source: lexleader.net

4. Coffee.

5. Tanner.

6. Worship.
Source: heartfeltmusic.org

7. Being tan.
Haha....just kidding.

8. Acoustic music.
Source: musicwalls.org

9. Blogging.
Source: favim.com

10. Shopping.
Source: www.packagingsource.com

11. Preparing Bible lessons.

12. Bookshops.
Source: www.newyorker.com

13. Starbucks.

14. Chocolate raspberry anything.

15. RA Group.

16. Beth Moore.
Source: www.oneplace.com

17. Scarves.

18. Seven.
Source: www.lynnehartke.com

19. Beauty and the Beast
Source: www.disneydreaming.com

 20. My family
 
 
*Disclaimer: pictures are not my own!!

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

lent.

Who knows what today is?! If you didn't catch it from my title...today marks the beginning of lent!

Some of you may not know this, but I was raised Catholic and went to Catholic school for about 9 years.  One of the most well known and most widely practiced events in the Catholic Church calendar is the season of Lent, which is the 40 days leading up to Easter.  Its known as the time when you give something up, or "fast" from something. 

As a kid, lent meant that I couldn't eat something that I really liked.  It was a time of suffering because I really wanted soda, or chocolate, but couldn't eat it.  I remember one year, my whole family gave up all junk food, and I hated it.  Rice cakes became my best friend.  The lent tradition is that on Sundays you can break your fast if you want to, so my mom would buy some sort of sweet for us all to enjoy for that one day.  One time she bought carrot cake as our treat, and I was furious because to me, since it was called carrot cake, it meant that it was still healthy food, and not junk food.  Silly me.  

When I was in high school, I stopped practicing lent because I didn't see the point of it.  Why would I go through 40 days of making myself suffer because I couldn't eat something that I wanted?! 

This year, the Lord really changed my heart to lent, and opened my eyes to see it in a completely different way. I've never done something personal or meaningful for lent - I've only done things because my teachers and parents told me to.  


I did some research on the origins of lent, and what the purpose of it is. I learned that lent is the time leading up to Easter because it is meant to prepare us for the Resurrection of Jesus.  The major themes that people focus on during lent are repentance, reflection, prayer, and self-denial.  

Lent comes directly from the example that Jesus Christ set for us in the Bible.  In Matthew 4, Jesus goes into the wilderness and fasts for 40 days, then is tempted by the devil.  During Jesus' time of fasting, he pressed so deeply into His Father for support that He was able to stand against the devil's temptations.  After Jesus came out of his 40 day fast in the wilderness, He began His public ministry. 

This is why Lent is so closely associated with fasting.  Since Christ demonstrated fasting in order to prepare for His ministry on earth, how much more should we? He is our primary example.

I know that fasting is so much more than just giving up junk food, or soda, or candy.   But why else should we fast? And what does fasting look for us now?

Isaiah 58 is one of my favorite passages of Scripture, and it gives a clear picture of the type of fasting that God calls us to:

"Is not this the fast that I choose:
to loose the bonds of wickedness,
to undo the straps of the yoke, 

to let the oppressed go free,
and to break every yoke?
Is it not to share your bread with the hungry
and bring the homeless poor into your house; 

when you see the naked, to cover him,
and not to hide yourself from your own flesh?"
- Isaiah 58:6-8
I love this picture that God gives us.  When we fast, we are denying the ourselves so that there is more room for God to work in our lives.  He breaks chains, destroys strongholds, lets the oppressing things go.  This is a picture of freedom that comes only through fasting.  It also leaves an effect on the lives of people around us.  When we fast, we have extra to give to others and to meet their needs. 


 Here's what Margaret Feinberg says about Lent,
There is a reason why Lent is associated so closely to fasting.  For me, Lent is the time of year when I tug on Papa’s sleeve and say, “I want more, more, more of you!”  Hungry. Persistent. Expectant. It’s more than a set of dates on the church calendar—it’s a season to passionately pursue God and live wide-eyed to the wonder of who He is. The wonders of God are waiting for you during Lent. This season is laced with opportunity that will stir your hunger to know God more.
This Lent, I'm going into this season with expectancy to see more of God present in my life.  I'm changing my perspective on it.  Instead of going into this time only focusing on how difficult fasting can be, I'm facing it with excitement because it is a huge opportunity for growth.  I'm going into this season with a set of things that I want to take of hold of, rather than give up.  I want to wake up on Easter Sunday and be a different person than I am right now. 

What better time for God to work on me, for Him to challenge me, and for Him to pour more of Him into me than in the time to prepare for Easter?

Lent should be thought of more as "what am I going to lay hold of?" rather than, "what am I going to give up?" What am I going to add to my life, instead of taking something away?

I'm actually going to be doing both - laying hold as well as giving up. I’m challenging you to take time today to ask God what He’s calling you toward during Lent this year. Get practical. Do something for the Lord that you've never done before.  

Here are my plans for Lent: 
1.  7 Sacred Pauses - Pause 7 times a day daily to pray and wait on the Lord. I'm doing this because I've been so busy, I need to rely on the Lord even more in the midst of it. I also don't want to pray mindlessly, but be intentional about it.
2. Social Media Fast - No Facebook, Twitter, Instagram. They've been distracting, and its been keeping me from focusing on the Lord during my quiet times.

If you are feeling resistant to doing something for Lent, what is holding you back? Will you open up your heart to allow God to move in a deeper way? What is going to be your plan of action to practically allow God to move in your life?

Monday, February 11, 2013

feeling grateful

This past week has been really tough.  It s been really busy and I've been constantly going from one thing to another.  In the midst of such a crazy week, I've faced some discouragement and disappointment.  That's why I want to take some time to thank a good friend of mine who blessed me so much by giving me such a meaningful gift. 

My friend, Katie, stopped by my room one night this week and gave me this beautiful purse.  It was handmade in Rwanda, and all of the money paid for the bag goes towards the Restore Rwanda fund. The name of the woman who sewed this purse is written inside, so I'm constantly carrying a piece of Rwanda with me. Hopefully, when I go to Rwanda, I can meet the woman who made my bag!


I've wanted to buy one of these bags for awhile, but since I'm doing a shopping fast (read about it here) I didn't buy one for myself.  Katie is one of the members of my Rwanda missions trip team, so she knows how much Rwanda means to me, and wanted to bless me with a gift in the midst of my fast. 

Receiving gifts makes me feel so loved.  Whether someone buys me a cup of coffee or a big birthday present, knowing that someone thought of me is so meaningful.  This may sound strange, but having someone spend money on me is such a sign of sacrificial love to me.  She gave it to me in the midst of a hard time, so I felt all the more loved and cared for. I felt so encouraged by the Lord after receiving this because I know that I am so undeserving of anything, but He delights in blessing me anyways.

This will be something that I cherish for a long time.  Thank you, Katie, for being such a faithful friend and a generous servant!